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ticklepinions · 5 months ago

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No more t*ckling scenes in media. PLEASE

Why is it the ones that circulate always sprinkled with an unhealthy amount of *weird*

Or is it just me because I'm hyperaware of seeing my own interest on the big screen

What happened to lighthearted pokes in the sides why is it so deeply non consensual or used in a way to make fun of it.

Like PLEASE be fucking normal about it!!!! Whether it's as a kink or not don't make it weird 😭😭😭😭😭😭

#ofc some people love that sort of thing and whatever thats great for them #but what about ME huh!?#the boys will still have the most sickening one for me personally #but the OTHER one I saw from a different show circulating #the anxiety I got- through the ROOF #anyways I'm probably being dramatic but it upsets me that they cant just be normal about it #we get it- people hate being tickled #but what if they didn't 👀#nah those people don't exist #im not asking for characters to love being tickled #im asking for not a dan sch*der esque portrayal of sonething I just so happen to like #and also as an aroace can we maybe have some platonic t*ckles pwease

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vynnyal · 6 months ago

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This is a pretty good point in the wip to share this, methinks :]

Map part for the hole dwelling map, starring... Not my ocs! I wanted to use ocs, but I don't have any-- so I just used the characters from a fic I was reading at the time 😂

Turns out, the symbolism was so much fun to twist into the 11 seconds I had to work with, I ended up going way more complex than I meant to. If you wanna read the fic this was based on, please do!! And tell the author I said hi! :D

#Hole dwelling map #animation #video #art #Wip #rain world #Artificer #five pebbles #I ofc got the go-ahead from the author on disc. They really enjoyed it yaaay #Fun fact btw- the author is a better artist than I am but doesn't share their art 😭😭😭 I had to personally request to see it #Mood tho #As for the story: it good. me likey. mucho gusto. Basically its a parallel story #So half the story is the distant past and the other half is the distant future. It starts with them being totally disconnected #But by this point- chapter 14 I think?- it's like OOOOH SHIT IT MAKES SENSE NOW #It's personally one of my fav fics and I'm glad I found it :> fr up there with 'taking life as is'#and the other top fic about pebbles getting anxiety attacks over Talking To People /pos #I wasn't kidding about using these characters purely because I was reading the fic when I signed up for the map. My thought process was:#Hey wouldn't it be funny if I just made an entire map part about this random thing? And I was right. It was #OH before I forget. I forgot I left a ref image of the Creature™ in the first shot- that's the authors art :] I'll animate it later #Sure enough I put this in my drafts for like a week lmfao. There's some missing elements and it's scuffed and it's a WIP LOL

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gen4grl · 6 months ago

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you would think after all the yapping i do about these losers i would have a plethora of art uploaded … no… so here is my first kantrio post lol

i did these over the last month while watching the olympic weightlifting and jamming to kpop (stan red velvet and kiss of life BTW!!!)

#pokemon #pkmn #trainer red #rival blue #trainer leaf #i made them classy and smoke from a joint idk maybe i should of done the classic aussie teen experience and make them smoke from a water #bottle bong 🤩 red is a massive foodie so ofc he has the multiple options of snacks ready lol my go-to fried food was a capriccosia pizza 😭#i’m always conflicted on the blue smoking hc (just cigarettes yall lol) i often see fanart of professor blue smoking and i see the vision #50/50??? let me ask the audience 🗣️ i think i’m bias cause i am cursed with thinking men who smoke are extremely attractive lmao #there is 100% lore behind that second piece but i am so burnt out and i don’t think it’ll fit in tags lol #also just have a raging fear of sharing anything kantrio related LOL like raging projectile vomiting level anxiety #blue fears repeating the toxic cycles he grew up in but oops he’s doing exactly that in the second piece 🧐#wowzers … as kieran would say lol … i love writing and thinking about blue and his emotional growth over those 3 years red was missing #but hey sometimes something hurts so badly it takes you back to that sad and scared child version of yourself right?#strength to me is like: red >>>>>>> leaf >> blue🤷🏻‍♀️ they technically both canonically beat blue in gamecanon so … my girl is strong sorry #ain’t standing shy timid leaf in this house …#also - despite being acespec myself i didn’t know demi was under the ace umbrella! i think it suits red super well imo :p #pan aswell bc i don’t think he gaf 😭 also shout out to one of my fave pkmn artists kiriato 🫶🏻🤧 i was going through such bad art block and #their work inspired all of these :3 i love their stuff sm espcially their comics 🥹 i drew all of these using their brush sets too!!!#trainer blue #blue pokemon #red pokemon #leaf pokemon #pokemon art #pokemon fanart #pokemon frlg #trainer green #rival green #my art <3 #kanto au

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ledzeppelinmixtape · 1 year ago

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wish house was a real doctor so i could be his mystery insomniac patient and after giving me horse tranquilizers and still not falling asleep he just hits me in the head with his cane and im out like a light

#house md #i was supposed yo be asleep 2 hrs ago cause i planned to get up very early to study but LMAO NO #as soon as i shut my eyes my chest felt like it was being ripped to shreds from anxiety. i love i love it i love it (←says guy who hates it #anyways. i got mad i cried i googled some things frantically and now im in an acceptance phase of 'it is what it is' ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯#i think the thing that makes me the most frustrated is that. i slept like shit last night. like 4hrs maybe!!!! total!!! and so by the time #i started studying today around 6:30 i was eepy. and then by 7:15 my eyes were sooo heavy so i decided to take a 15 min power nap #and i was DREAMING within minutes. i fell asleep that quick. such a deep sleep that my alarm scared me awake #but ofc when im like oh teehee ill go to bet hella early and wake up hella early my brain is like ? no.#if youre still reading. idk im kissing you on the mouth or something. thanks for being here 🫶#gonna start tagging these posts as #insomnia chronicles

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pleasedontcareaboutme · 4 months ago

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It's missing my father hours rn so imma just dump a bunch of pictures here and cry

( sorry i don't know the source of anything I just had them on my phone)

(also dont read the tags i just need to let it out lol)

#I just realized I can call him dad easier than my real dad and now I understand why am I so damn attached to him #I always knew he was a parental figure for me #but now I connected the dots #How when u have an absent dad and a d34d mom a guy shows up in ur life #that tells u life advice that both of ur parents failed to do so #and makes u feel safe the first time in ur life #ofc ud become attached #i know for sure its unhealthy how much i love and miss him #he occupies most of my thoughts honestly #But how could i not cling to him so much when he was the only one who gave me hope in life #i try to keep going and even tho he is not here i keep telling myself whatever he taught me. i keep reminding myself he wants us to live an #bloom and be free #and that's what ill try to do #but you know somedays i wish i could just disappear and be wrapped in eternal happiness #its so fucking hard to pull yourself out of the slump man im so fucking tired im so so tired #somedays i wish id have the courage to off myself but i know that deep down i want to live and ive always wanted to live but i have no idea #how to live. i feel like i finally found a purpose and someone i love. but at the same time im always doubting myself and im scared of losi #g this little hope again and i know i should cherish and use it instead but each day i have this anxiety because rn i have nothing else if #lose this i seriously will lose everything atp. but ill still try bc rn its this or death so i should try im just damn tired yes anyways #sorry for being depressing some days just dont work out but thats okay #yes at the same time i want to get out of my head and try to find some friends but i cant deny that im highkey fucked up and i just cant le #go of my past and i still feel like that helpless unloved kid and idk how to form relationships this way. i dont trust myself at all so idk #how to trust others. and i feel like in order to find ppl that would love me i have to overshare abt my whole lifestory bc it still dictate #my life heavily. and since i met this band its better cuz im learning to deal w it and i want to heal from everything but yes at the same t #me who would wqnt to be friends w. someone that has like a year of life experience and 18 years of depression lol #so yes its complicated. bc i have friends but im like the funny friend. the one that is as shallow as puddle and has no problems but honest #y im genuinely sufferint qnd have been sufferinz all my life so i want to come out of my funny friend role. but that wojld mean i have to t #ll the shit i went through to all my friends but tbh it would be so random so ye. i do have a plan though. how it could work. But yes im ti #ed have been tired for 7 years now. But this time around i hope i can successfully get out of this torture cycle lol.#ok sorry this is what happens after puberty guys i could beva research case for a damn mental institute atp xdd

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aibouart · 2 months ago

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uurgg... red.........

WOOGOGOGOG red.......... (left is actually Pangaea)

i have no coherent thoughts but want to share him. i am thinking much about him and spinning him in his my minds eye.

what if u had a boyfriend and he was so full of angst secretly.............

but he always looks at u like this.......

HRHEHRHE

ok im done making this post long. wish i had a coherent backstory to at least dump about but in their universe, every AU is canon at the same time, and that's a lot of AUs JKBSDJKFJKDS

i kinda wanna make a blog where all my OCs ever are askable, not like it'd have a direction it'd just be one of those things to mess with if you wanted to see how they'd react, but honestly atp may as well do that here (or my personal).

#yes im shoving the bandit red interaction on this post i think abt it a lot ok #my art #red #oc #text #just got back from work #fighting anxiety cuz i went to find my backup old tv cuz my tv died today ??#and i took the one in the storage and was like huh this is bigger than i remember #AND ITS MY ROOMMATES #SO I AM HOPING THEY DON'T NOTICE BEFORE I GET TO PUT IT BACK ON MONDAY #i can't tonight cuz the storage is in their space and if they're home tomorrow same issue #id tell them but i dont want them to be mad at me or annoyed at me cuz one of them was already sounding annoyed when i said i needed to #access the storage space #shreg emoji #also ofc bandit belongs to saasart and orchid the other dude belong to koifish-komeiji #he is collecting boyfriends #granted bandit is not his boyfriend thats just his emotional support vampiric friend that doesnt want to kill him

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coridallasmultipass · 6 months ago

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BESTEST WIDDLE SNAKEY WAKEY.

I can't believe my son is 18!! I estimated a birth date for him to be about a month before I got him in fall of 2006, since he was such a widdle month-old baby sneky. I always try to get a good birthday pic of him - especially after he eats and gets the good yawns in.

Pretty soon, he'll be off to snake college, for snakes. Dunno how we're gonna afford those ssssnudent loans.

Image description below the cut:

First photo is an albino corn snake (species name: Pantherophis guttatus) peeking out from behind a fake flower on a rocky hide (a house inside the tank where reptiles can feel secure and hidden). The snake is flicking his tongue out. Only his head is visible in the photo. Caption on the photo reads: Demo's 18th birthday. August 9, 2024.

Next photo is the same snake, but in a clear, close-up, detail photo. Each scale is clearly defined. He has red eyes and pink cheeks, and pale white patterns on an off-white body. The scales on his head are shaped to follow the different planes of his face. The scales on his neck (and body, not shown) are uniform and scallop-shaped.

The next three photos are sequential. The same snake appears with his mouth barely open. Then, his mouth is wide open in a yawn. His cheeks look so smooshy. His head is shaped the way a snap hairclip opens, curved upwards, and it's funny and cute. His mouth has ridges inside, but no teeth or fangs are visible (because his teeth are too tiny to be photographed politely, and he does not have any fangs). The last photo in the sequence has the snake with his mouth still open, but the top of his head is a normal shape again as he begins to end the yawn.

#snake #snakes #corn snake #snow corn #snek #sneks #snekblr #reptile #reptiles #Pantherophis guttatus #Elaphe guttata #cute #pets #pet birthday #18 #tank is bare in the pics bc i ran out of spoons while washing everything #i forgot i have to wash decor outside and it got dark and i didnt wanna get bug bites so i had to...#...do a whole sink of heavy dirty dishes (not mine) AND wash the decor around the thawing meal for him #...and then disinfect the sink ofc bc i was at my limit after only getting the hide and water bowl washed #was gonna do it earlier in the day but ppl were moody downstairs #hes gonna sleep off that meal and sippy sip rn anyway (was already in his hide by the time i refilled my water and went back to my room)#i got a drinking vid but he was facing away from my vantage point and it makes him look like a hognose bc of refraction lol #anyway i gotta get ready for bed myself today was busy and i didnt even finish the one thing i planned to do bc im too tired #Cori.exe #Image.exe #i would do a silly edit like i usually do for demos bday but again i have no spoons rn #hhh added image description and now its almost midnight aa gotta post fast #*now its midnight lmao #ughhh i couldve been ready for bed in the amount of time it takes me to proofread an unacceptable number of times #anxiety is a mf 'what if i misspelled a word' 'what if this phrasing is awkward' mf im the only one that cares shut up

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rosetheocto · 2 months ago

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Watching A Failboat Video/Stream Moodboard!! ⛵‼️

…does this make sense-

#a mix of the genuine anxiety yet curiosity when he does something #seeing the gimmicks #chatty dee’s unfunny commentary #(noteblock’s back hurts from how much he carries their comedy in main uploads)#some AI stuff that’s a bit iffy but better than what other YouTubers are doing #and ofc #me going crazy every time he mentions miis #idk man I’m just here #failboat #and i mean #these all only get amplified when the stream is #failboat miitopia #failtopia #ALSO CHAT as much as I joke about wanting Dan to stub his pinky on a wall or whatever #I can’t stress enough how much I don’t really care about him #I mean like I do as a creator and I’m glad he’s living a fun life #but I’ve seen some genuine creeps in this fandom #I’m not one of them #if you are DNI. you know who you are #I’m obsessed with his CHARACTERS #not him #there’s a difference

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callumilott · 3 months ago

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i turn 27 today so heres a list of fun and cool things ive done at age 26 !

got my first passport

went on my first international vacation in 6 years to england (n met up with @allthewayabt)

travelled further than ive ever travelled before to hang out with my best friend of 5 years in person for the first time ( @lundgaard ) !

registered to be a blood donor and made my first donation

made new friends !

levelled up my crochet skills to make the cutest little plushies

started doing markets to sell my crochet items (with great success)

hung out with and had great times with my most beloved friends

#text*#incomplete list ofc #but this was a big year for me personally #recovering from anxiety is a trip lmao yeah ill take a giant trip across the continent #no i cannot make a phone call #anyway heres to 27. gonna do more fun and cool things and im excited !

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girlstressed · 7 months ago

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does anyone have a lot of trouble reaching out to their friends like i realised this recently but if someone doesnt text me first i literally just wont reach out but its not because i dont want to i just like constantly think im bothering them

#there are some exceptions ofc but like the idea of sending a long text and then being on delivered for hours literally gives me unspeakable #amounts of anxiety #my friend texted me yesterday “hello” with no context i had to take a walk to calm down from stress like #i can be ur crazy mentaal illness gf <- is actually insane #personal #anyways feel free to advise me on this <3

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andyrg099 · 1 year ago

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So, i read the @gay-fae post about how sad it is that Ed doesn't know about the conversation between Stede and Chauncey, about the fact that Ed doesn't know that Stede wanted to protect him because everything he touches ends up damaged. That is so, so sad, but do you know what makes it sadder? Ed must think that the reason why Stede left him is because he is not good enough anymore.

We know Ed didn't want anything to do with being Blackbeard anymore, he just wanted to be with Stede, in the British Army or somewhere far, far away from everyone they knew, however, from his perspective, the moment he says that to Stede, he vanishes, and even though Stede said he didn't really like how cruel and indifferent Blackbeard was, Ed must think that he only wanted the status that came from being near the most feared pirate of all times.

Ed doesn't know the real reason why Stede left, he only knows that the second he stepped down from his role, he was abandoned. And maybe that is why he once more became Blackbeard, because he was finally convinced he's nothing if not a monstrous pirate. And maybe, a part of him thinks that if he comes back to the sea angrier and crueler than ever, maybe Stede will someday come back.

#our flag means death #ofmd #stede bonnet #blackbonnet #edward teach #blackbeard #ed x stede #he will probably lash out at stede because he is just monstrous like that #isn't he?#isn't that the only thing he can be?#apart from the obvious separation anxiety #ofc #can somebody edit ofmd with Mistki?#I'm your man is so them #i'm begging

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angelstrawbabie420 · 11 days ago

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another thing is ive been off my meds like a month and i genuinely do not know if it’s been better or not. lmfao

#ofc your first reaction wld be absolutely not.#HOWEVER #i have had SO much more energy i can actually fucking get shit done without it draining every last bit of my energy #and i am oddly FAR calmer. id normally be in complete fucking breakdown mode with the shit thats gone on but i feel way more equipped to #handle it? my mind feels way less foggy #i can feel some semblance of pleasure #im not okay. but i fucking wasnt okay on meds either #in fact i was worse. they were making me more fucking depressed. i felt NOTHING #which is even worse than anything. emptiness to me is so much worse than depression or anxiety #at least those can be quelled. distracted from. emptiness makes me want to tear my fucking skin off #im way less tired when i get decent sleep. i was sleeping 12 hours a day and not feeling rested i couldnt even get out of bed #i couldnt afford them this time and havent had horrid withdrawals as id been tapering for a while after not having my prescription prior to #that #dunno what it all means. but i’ll take it to be quite honest with you #im also not so fucking hungry all the time which is incredible bc i am broke #i do think the dreams have gotten worse but that could stop with time

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jovibee · 3 months ago

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I just voted for the first time :3

#it was a very long process added by the fact that I’m running on half and hour of sleep #a bit of bated breath about the presidential election ofc but honestly I’m much more worried about the abortion amendment for my state #an abortion ban would be detrimental to my anxiety and paranoia so I’m hoping and praying that the votes pull through #anyways that was a bit personal for me I’ll go back to the void now #from the hive

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